There was none here.
There was no foolishness
no not knowing.
and soon everyone else that need to did as well
even if we continue to play it off
each discussing the other in pronouns, initials, pseudonyms, and geographical locations
relegating certain acts to certain spaces and places.
Ya pa’que vale la mentira
of pretending things are the same
of saying we are going one place
when we are going somewhere else.
The hurt of reality has been cut into skin
now all that is left is the healing
the scabbing over
and the remembering not to forget
so you don’t fall again.
Seems silly that he lied to me like that
after the more serious omissions and lies I have said and not said.
Pero he told me he was going to the museum today
with his family
with the free pass I gave him.
Pero then as I went off to buy a bottle of wine
to celebrate having the apartment the way I want it
with me and my daughters
I spotted him there
buying a bottle of wine
and I remembered
the how and the where that would happen before.
I don’t know why he felt he couldn’t tell me
the real plan for day
or why he just said nothing except he was going out.
It struck me.
I watched him from afar
waited for him to leave before buying my own celebratory bottle.